Myron walked in the door with a confused look on his face. He looked like he wanted to say twenty things at once and was stuck because he couldn’t get it all out at the same time. I was ready for him though. I leaned up against the window and stared at him with my arms folded across my chest.
“Ok Myron, let’s hear it.”
“I just got off of the phone with Regina and she’s telling me that she had a long conversation with you last night. I’m confused because I know that you were here with me in the bed all night long, but when I checked my call log, it clearly shows that there was a conversation at the time that she said she spoke to you.”
“Yep, so what’s the problem?”
“The problem is that this was just before I woke up and sensed that something was wrong with you. I tried to get you to talk to me and you refused. Why?”
“I didn’t want to talk to you at that moment, Myron. I wasn’t ready to deal with your lies or excuses or bullshit. We just had the most incredible day and capped it off with the most incredible love making I’ve ever experienced, I wasn’t ready to have you destroy my momentary happiness by informing that you are married, or involved or whatever the hell you are with whoever the hell that woman is!”
The look on Myron’s face was devoid of any emotion. He had a complete poker face. I couldn’t read what was going on inside of his mind or his heart and that unnerved me a bit. He walked over to me and handed me his phone.
“What am I supposed to do with this?”
“You broke this, I’m going to actually give you a chance to fix it before this gets any further out of hand.”
“Excuse me?! I know you don’t expect me to call your wife back and help you smooth things over with her?”
I was outraged and about to completely give it to him with both barrels.
“No Tameka, that’s not what I mean at all. You’ve got this all wrong, and before we destroy this beautiful gift that we’ve been given, we need to stop the madness and get on the same sheet of music. I am not married. And she is not my woman. Let me make that clear and get that out of the way right now.”
“Then who the hell is she Myron? Why does she have your phone number and why does she feel comfortable with calling you at crazy hours of the night? Why was she texting you asking you where you were and when would you be coming home? Why in the hell is she threatening my life behind your trifling ass? Women don’t just act like that unless they feel justified in their actions. And the only way she would feel justified is if you’ve given her a reason to feel that way! So no matter how you slice this, you still come out a lying, cheating son of a bitch!”
Myron’s face was physically distorting with his anger and disapproval.
“Are you serious right now Meka? I’ve poured my heart out to you and have been down with you and for you every single day for the last four months and now you’re telling me that you’ve reached your conclusion about me and this whole situation without even hearing my side first?”
“Ok Myron, go ahead, let me hear your explanation for this bullshit.”
“No, it’s crystal clear that you’ve already made up your mind about what you think you know. So I won’t waste my time trying to explain, I’ll just show you.”
Myron snatched his phone out of my hand and held his index finger to his lips for me to be quiet as he dialed a phone number and put his cell on speaker phone. The next voice I heard was the exact same one I had allowed myself to be baited into an argument with last night.
“Myron! I said that I was sorry! What else do you want me to do?”
“Nothing! There is nothing else that you can do Regina! You sat on this phone and told on me, made me look like I was some cheating manipulating man when all I did was look out for you and your children! Children that aren’t even mine!”
Myron made it a point to look me square in the eye as he made his statements.
“I know, but I didn’t mean for it to happen that way! You know all I wanted was for us to be back together again, and I just allowed my hopes to get high when you put a roof over our heads.”
“I did that because you and I have history and I wasn’t going to allow you to sleep on the street or end up in a shelter. I was trying to be a genuine friend!”
“But I never lead you on, I was honest with you from the jump! I told you that I was in a serious relationship didn’t I?"
Myron was manipulating her perfectly. He was asking her questions for my benefit to prove his innocence and I was beginning to feel like a damn idiot before she even had a chance to answer his questions. I knew exactly where this was going.
“I told you that for the first time in my adult life that I was in love! Didn’t I?”
“Yes, Myron, you did. But how do think that made me feel? Knowing that I was your first and still in love with you, still wanting to be with you, and you telling me to my face that you love someone else more than you ever loved me? That shit hurt! You crushed my heart! And I wasn’t trying to be messy on purpose, I was just trying to reach you. I didn’t know where you were or why you hadn’t come home, I felt like you were ignoring me because of her and that was making me crazy, you know how I get! And then next thing I know she’s answering your phone and something in me just snapped! I just lost it! I’m sorry! But can’t you understand where I’m coming from in all of this?”
Oddly enough, while she’s breaking all of this down to Myron, I really am actually beginning to understand her point of view perfectly. The way things had unfolded, her desperation to get her man back, him ignoring her and then me answering the phone the way that I did…yeah, it was all starting to make sense to me now. I continued to listen in silence.
“Hell no I don’t understand! You came to me for help! I help you when no one else would! You repay my kindness by destroying my relationship with the only woman I have ever loved by acting like I’m in a relationship with you! Which is a lie from the pits of hell!!! Is it not?
Myron steps directly in front of me now to ensure that I hear her reply.
“Yes, I lied. I’m sorry. I’m sorry, I’m sorry, I’m sorry….”
Regina’s voice begins to crack. She sounds as if she is on the edge of tears, if she’s not already crying. Myron is totally unmoved by her display of emotion.
“Sorry won’t cut it this time Regina. You need to pack your shit and get out of my place right now!”
My eyes widened as my whole equilibrium shifted. I had never seen Myron so agitated or angry. And as much as I disliked Regina, I didn’t want to feel responsible for her and her kids being put out on the street. I had never felt so conflicted before in my entire life.
“Are you serious Myron? Where will I go? What am I gonna do with no money and two kids on my hands?”
“Not my problem anymore. I tried to have your back and you went out of your way to dismantle my life. You tried to hurt me by taking away the one thing that I told you brought my heart joy. If you’re not gone within the hour, I’m calling the police and having you arrested for breaking and entering, burglary, and any other bullshit I can come up with. You lied on me, best believe I have no problem with lying on you! Get your shit together and get out! And I don’t ever want to see you again! Are we clear?”
“…yeah, we’re clear. I’m really sorry Myron.”
She sounded so defeated. I should have been smiling my silent victory, but somehow the mother in me felt like I just really put her and her kids in jeopardy. I started to say something, but the look in Myron’s eyes told me that he was resolved in his decision and that he wasn’t just having issue with her, all of this was just to prove a point to me, he still had some choice words for me as well. Myron hung up the phone and then took a deep breath before voicing his frustration towards me.
“For four months now you have kept me at arm’s length. Out of respect for you and your son I took things as slow as you needed me too. I have never pressured you or stressed you or lied to you.”
“I know, you’re right…”
“No, let me finish, please. We stay on the phone every single night till the wee hours. I pick your son up for you. I’m accountable to you for every minute of my life, even though you wouldn’t commit to me. I’ve been trying to show you, not with my words, but through my actions that my love for you is true and genuine. And the first chance you get, you go snooping through my things, enter into a conversation on my phone, behind my back, and immediately assume the worse of me! What did you say I was again? Oh yeah, a ‘lying, cheating son of a bitch! – Wow…just…wow, Tameka.”
“Well, in all honesty, this never would have happened if you had just told me about her in the first place!”
“No Meka, this never would have happened if you didn’t go sneaking through my cell phone and God only knows what else. And I didn’t say anything about her to you because you have a very jealous nature and I didn’t think that you would believe that I could help her and not want to play around on the side. I didn’t need the extra headache, I just wanted to help a friend. I thought I could do that if I just kept you both away from each other. But I told her about you because I didn’t want any bullshit between her and me. So she knew what was up from the very beginning.
“But how was I supposed to know that Myron?”
“You’re missing the point Tameka, you weren’t supposed to know anything at all. And you wouldn’t have if you had just respected my privacy, but that is actually secondary. Proving my innocence was easy enough, so that was a minor issue, the real issue is that you would think so little of me. I’m just really having an issue with you doing me like this after the four months I’ve spent giving you my time, energy, affection, love and patience. What kind of man do you think I am?”
“I know you’re a good man, Myron…”
“Apparently not,…because a few short minutes ago, I was nothing more than a ‘lying, cheating, son of a bitch.”
And with that Myron spun around and walked out of the door.
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